Today has been crazy. Nothing has gone as planned this weekend. I had a family portrait session this afternoon, and then I went to St Kilda. It has rained most of the day, so being able to go out and take photos hasn’t been great. So when I got to St Kilda, I took very few photos.
I haven’t done this very well. I am so tired, and when I got this image on the computer, I just didn’t know what to do with it. I think part of the reason is, because it doesn’t really fit in with the type of work I want to do anymore.
Sometimes, I find, I am just not in the right head space. I don’t really like this image now, but you may find it appealing. I think this is what can happen when you try and force yourself to do something that you don’t really want to do.
When I go out and do something like a family session, I find it so draining. I have to be constantly thinking, changing what I am doing and just taking photos. It is hard, your mind never stops. I enjoyed it, but I wasn’t comfortable. Doing portrait sessions is still new to me, though, definitely something I want to continue doing.
I feel like I should apologise, I feel I have let you down. Though, I guess there are going to be times when it isn’t going to work. I will just have to keep trying.